Some of them want to use you, Some of them want to get used by you...

Yesterday was the first time in a long, long time that Big Brother, Damiana, and myself had a sexual encounter with all three of us in the same room, and all three of us involved.

For the most part, Me and Big Brother resort to having sex in front of her. Because...For the most part, she is always there, and, if we only had sex the times she wasn't there, well, we wouldn't be having sex very often...She is an emotionally dependent type...A very needy person. I think she remains in the house on purpose...Often, when she has to go out for "Work", she will end up missing the transportation(Subway or bus) and either having to go to a gig later on in the day, or not at all(Thus staying in the house all day, and giving us neither the time nor the space to have sex.).

Sometimes, we wait until she(And Mia, the ex) is out of the house, usually on one of her gigs. (She's a professional Dominatrix, but a Slave in her day-to-day life. She also dances, and models.)

But when the former happens...Us having sex in front of her, Big Brother tries to do something to her to not make her feel left out...Kissing her, biting her, fingering her...Something.

Well...Yesterday we didn't exactly sleep together. At least, not I and Damiana, and not her and Big Brother...

But we were both able to let go of our envy long enough to enjoy the time we were spending with him. Her, in a sort of closeness with her Master, and I with my boyfriend.

I rode my boyfriend, for a long time. Probably for about an hour and a half to two hours...When I was done, I was sweating all over. I am pretty sure I burned off a lot of calories, if not all of them from the previous day.

I sucked him off for a good while too.

Damiana kissed him. Mostly his forehead.

As a Slave, she doesn't have the same rights as I do...She is there for his pleasure.

Machiavelli's The Prince is a good example...Big Brother is the head, and she... Is some other part of the body. Some...Unimportant...Almost nonexistent part.

Without the head, the body cannot exist. That is, speaking in terms of political systems, and other forms of hierachies.
As he explains it, she is a physical manifestation of his will. She is his right arm.

Damiana says that he is a chauvinist...But I do not see. In some ways I do...But when you allow yourself to be used and abused...When you transfer that power to another human being...Do not expect them to both to not take it and then, when they do seize that power, not to use it recklessly. She is the homemaker of the household, and there are duties she must perform throughout. She lives and works for Big Brother...She goes out and...Not sells her body, because that would be illegal(Hint hint Google:p), but goes out on gigs where she , all so that she can please Big Brother and have the rent for him/us to stay in the place we are living now.

When she wakes up, usually around 9-ish(He is being more lenient on her now and letting her sleep later), she cleans all of the floors of the house, and does all of the household duties.

The night before, before she is allowed to sleep, she has to make sure all of the dishes are washed.

I will mention at this point, so all of us don't look like douche's....That we all work. I myself work as a cashier/stock and put in about 2-400(Depending on how much she makes a month, because she can easily bring in $1600/mo, but sometimes, because of the seasons and whatnot ends up bringing in less.)

The thing is...
She wants to be used
She wants to feel owned, because, in a sick sort of way, it makes her feel wanted.
He once told me that her only desire in life, "Is to be cherished in a household."
I just wish it weren't this one...

Honestly, I am not sure why she does it. Or even how she brings herself to do it. He's told me that she has been this way since high school, even though he didn't know her then. She has a natural desire to please.

But me and "Big Brother" have come to a strict understanding.

I am not a Slave.

All three of us girls living in this apartment with him entrust to him our money, at least that which is put in for the rent, because, as far as that goes, he is the budget master.

But I have dreams...My ultimate goal is to be an artist. To be a free-thinking individual is how I will leave a mark on this world...Or at least hope that I will.

I serve no one.
That is my will.
It is what I live for.

He kept talking about us taking turns on his dick...But I am glad he was not serious about that. He said it jokingly, and got annoyed with her slavish, Wench ways of asking him, "My Lord"...Trying to woo him into letting her suck his dick or ride it...Like the Medieval bitch that she is.

Later on that day she spanked my bottom constantly, and drew her nails softly against my skin.

I wasn't a fan of the spanking, because well, it mostly hurt in a non appealing sort of way...But the way she tickled my flesh by drawing her nails against it gave my skin goosebumps, in a very good way.

It gave my body that sensation that said, "Stop...I"m being ticked.", but I wanted her to continue.

You can call me a bitch, but my reasoning for a) Having sex with Big Brother while she is in the room, or b) Hiding it from her and waiting til she leaves(I'm fine with either) is that she chose to be a Slave.

She chooses to wait on him hand and foot. She is not his girlfriend. She does not have the right to demand that she a)Have sex with him, or b)That we stop because it's damaging her psyche that she has to watch...She can choose to leave the room. That much she can do.

I shouldn't have to hold back on my feelings for him, or not get mine after a long week at work, just to appease her...

Interesting fact:
Damiana is the slave of the household.

The reason I chose the name "Big Brother" for my boyfriend is because that is the name she chose . Either that, "My Lord", "Sir". Apparently,"Big Brother" is an incestuous reference. She has an incest fetish...