Let down...

I found myself a little distraught after the photo shoot. I was sad to have let myself down, and my photographer. I try to think, though, that he got angry at him...And told me my photos were bad, so that I could become a better model. Which I know is true...Because, when I go out on photo or video gigs(Foot fetish, girl on girl...I've already been to a few of those.) those photographers aren't going to be as nice. Really, his honest is a courtesy to me. It's only going to help me grow, and to be so good in the future that no one is going to be able to shoot me down with something that might hurt my feelings. I am entering the modeling business...It is a cutthroat world...I'm already black, and not an ideal model size or height(Well, I am 117 lbs....Which might pass...But I am only 5'0, and oobviously the sort of girls that get these gigs are either 1)White or could pass for white or cater to what "White" people consider attractive, i.e. Asian and Hispanic, 2)At least tall.)